• I Wanna Escape

    I guess it really got to me
    Tears wouldn’t stop flowing on Monday night
    Thought I had it all sorted out but clearly I didn’t

    I still care about people’s perceptive of my performance
    And that I feel unjustified for the treatment given

    Tried forcing myself to sleep the entire night
    Watched vids of my boys on repeated mode
    It did lighten my spirits a little
    I eventually dozed off at around 4am in the morning

    Probably due to the lack of sleep
    And my rebellious mode was somehow switched on
    I didn’t go to work the next morning

    Towards the night, I got paranoid again on the work waiting for me due to my absence
    I dread what’s waiting for me
    I feel naked and torn for what’s gonna happen

  • SS4 BKK – 19th March 2012

    We woke up early for a swim that morning
    The boys aren’t coming for gym these days
    It doesn’t really matter anyway
    With or without them, we’d still be fully utilising the pool

    Breakfast was truly surprising
    Kyuhyun was there too having his breakfast
    We presumed he just arrived, with the number of ELF surrounding the restaurant
    He was zooming in and out filling up his plate in his possible fastest pace
    I still remember him getting apple juice and ketchup
    He ate in uber fast speed too!
    At least we get our incentives for staying in the same hotel
    Heh~

    We checked outta our hotel and left for Platinum Mall
    Again not much shopping done
    Lunch was yummilicious fake shark fins soup
    We left for airport in the afternoon
    Home sweet home at 10pm in the night

    This marks the end of the short BKK trip
    Marks the end of my SS4 tour with the boys

  • SS4 BKK – 18th March 2012

    Trying to recall what happened weeks ago
    My memory is already starting to fail me

    Shan and I woke up for an early swim
    It felt good to be swimming after so long
    Breakfast at hotel lobby after that
    We saw Yesung’s parents and Donghae’s mum eating there too

    Left hotel for Chatuchak when it was still morning
    Puppies there are soooooo cute
    If only I could own one too
    There wasn’t really much shopping done
    We were hurrying ourselves through the market

    Finally managed to find glutinous mango rice while combing through the streets
    We hurried back to our hotel to eat and freshen up before our trip to concert venue
    Bought tons of Maxim contact lens there since there were free Donghae posters given

    We got into a fight with the security staff at the venue
    Their body check was infuriating enough
    I even had to open my wallet to show them what’s inside
    They dug through my bag, took out my posters and cast them aside without a word
    That was the final straw
    I practically shouted at them

    At least my posters were still there when I exit from the venue
    Humph!

    The people queuing in front of us were more poor thing
    They couldn’t even bring their mobile phone into the venue
    Stupid concert organizer!

    LeeTeuk fell during the concert
    Shindong was pushing him backstage
    Siwon turned and wet towels for him, murmuring 바보 twice
    Finally LeeTeuk was pushed backstage to deal with his wound
    He didn’t play piano or saxophone for his solo
    Tears were welling up in his eyes
    At the end of the concert, he couldn’t even walk with all the crying
    Ah… heartache >.<

    They sing “Marry You” impromptu towards the very end
    I wish the concert would go on forever
    I wish this wasn’t my last SS4

    We went back to our hotel and left for massage
    Bought KFC and instant noodles back to our room for supper

    The blues of returning to work soon sets in
    The blues of last SS4
    Moody… …

  • Back from Guangzhou

    We arrived from Guangzhou inbound Singapore on Saturday morning, 5.30am
    Changed bed sheet and showered, ready for bed at 7am in the morning
    Saturday was spent through sleeping
    Sunday was sunny, perfect weather to wash partial of the thick clothings I brought to China

    I didn’t sleep well last night
    Couldn’t stop thinking about the work that awaits me
    And who knows if anyone took the chance to stab me in the back

    The girls reminded me last night that it is a short week this week due to Good Friday
    Thank God

    Monday morning heavy downpour didn’t make it easier to wake up

    Could this week pass faster?
    I dread it so much…