I guess it really got to me
Tears wouldn’t stop flowing on Monday night
Thought I had it all sorted out but clearly I didn’t
I still care about people’s perceptive of my performance
And that I feel unjustified for the treatment given
Tried forcing myself to sleep the entire night
Watched vids of my boys on repeated mode
It did lighten my spirits a little
I eventually dozed off at around 4am in the morning
Probably due to the lack of sleep
And my rebellious mode was somehow switched on
I didn’t go to work the next morning
Towards the night, I got paranoid again on the work waiting for me due to my absence
I dread what’s waiting for me
I feel naked and torn for what’s gonna happen
