• KTR Schedule [28 May 2012 – 03 Jun 2012]

    Kiss The Radio schedule for this week:

    Monday,28th May 2012 [BORA]
    Infinite

    Tuesday,29th May 2012 [BORA]
    Infinite

    Wednesday,30th May 2012 [BORA]
    Kim Jisu, J Rabbit

    Thursday, 31st May 2012 [BORA]
    No Guests

    Friday, 01st Jun 2012
    No Guests

    Saturday, 02nd Jun 2012
    No Guests

    Sunday, 03rd Jun 2012
    No Guests

  • Emotional Insecurity?

    It was raining in my dream last night
    I got my faulty umbrella to work but it was weighing on my head
    At least I wasn’t wet from the heavy downpour

    To see an umbrella in your dream symbolizes emotional security.
    You are putting up a shield against your emotions and are trying to avoid dealing with them.
    If the umbrella is leaking, then it indicates that you are unprepared with facing your problems.





  • KTR Schedule [21 May 2012 – 27 May 2012]

    Kiss The Radio schedule for this week:

    Monday,21st May 2012
    No Guests

    Tuesday,22nd May 2012
    No Guests

    Wednesday,23rd May 2012 [BORA]
    No Guests

    Thursday, 24th May 2012 [BORA]
    Guests: Sunny Hill

    Friday, 25th May 2012
    Guests: Peppertones

    Saturday, 26th May 2012
    Guests: Park Won and Lady Jane

    Sunday, 27th May 2012
    No Guests

  • Wishes

    I dreamt of Super Show again last night
    Didn’t see the boys in my dream though
    It’s enough to not wanting to wake up

    To dream that you are at a concert represents harmony and cooperation in a situation or relationship in your waking life.
    You are experiencing an uplift in your spirits.

    I wish trip to Korea would come faster
    I wish new work opportunities would come faster

    I wish I wish
    I wish upon the stars…

  • Nightmares

    I dreamt yet again
    It’s been one nightmare after another
    This time, I dreamt of cockroaches since the last one 2 months ago

    To see a cockroach in your dream symbolizes uncleanness.
    It also signifies longevity, tenacity and renewal.
    You need to re-evaluate major aspects of your life.
    Alternatively, the dream represents an undesirable aspect of yourself in which you need to confront.

    These cockroaches suggest much negativity around you which undoubtedly effects various aspects of your daily life.
    I suspect that these dreams reoccur because you have not yet begin to deal with the process of self-renewal.
    You can start by having a new and positive outlook.
    Keep an optimistic frame of mind.

    To dream that you are taking a shower in clear, fresh water symbolizes spiritual or physical renewal and forgiveness.
    You are washing the burdens out of your life.

    To see water in your dream symbolizes your subconscious and your emotional state of mind.
    Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy.
    It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment.

    To hear running water in your dream denotes meditation and reflection.
    You are reflecting on your thoughts and emotions.

    To dream that you or someone is yelling represents repressed anger that needs to be expressed.
    If you are yelling and no one hears, then it suggests that you are being overlooked in some waking situation.
    You feel that your voice does not matter or that your opinion does not count.

    Too much negativity
    Too much unhappiness surrounds me

  • Missing Again

    I dreamt again the night before
    That somehow I was in the same place where Yesung is

    It was given notion that Yesung would take photos with everyone there and we immediately clattered around him
    I saw my mum holding on to a DSLR camera and was apparently the photographer
    I was standing one person away from Yesung, directing her where take photos from
    My mum was very insecure and keep mumbling she doesn’t know how to take photos
    In the end I gave up my position and offered to take photos for everyone else

    To dream that you are taking a picture suggests that you need to focus more attention on some situation or relationship. Perhaps, you feel that you need to recapture some past moments in a relationship. Alternatively, taking a picture refers to your desires to hold onto a certain moment in your life.

    After the photography session, I was so upset because I wasn’t in the pictures
    Someone came up to me and commented in disgust, that I was perspiring a lot

    To dream that you are sweating suggests that you are experiencing some overwhelming anxiety, stress, fear, or nervousness in your life. This dream may serve to remind you that in order to achieve success, you need to endure the struggle and efforts that go along with success. Alternatively, sweating signifies a kind of cleansing or ridding of bad karma. You may be going through an emotional cool-off period.

    Next moment, I’m watching a Super Show concert
    The boys were everywhere as usual
    Shindong commented something about us standing too forward, and telling us to be careful
    Heechul was smiling and waving back when I shouted out his name, waving frantically

    To dream that you are waving to someone represents your connection to that person. You are trying to gain their recognition or get their attention. Perhaps there is a certain aspect of this person that you need to incorporate into your own self. The dream may also signify your need to develop deeper and closer friendship ties. 

    I miss the boys
    So much… … …

  • Korea Trip In My Dreams

    I dreamt last Thursday that I was working OT and fell asleep in office
    Suddenly spring up in my dream to see that it was already 3.48am
    It doesn’t feels good to be working this late, even in dreams

    Last night I dreamt that we were boarding flight to Jeju already
    Val and I were on the flight together
    It suddenly dawned upon me that I have forgotten to bring my international adapter, mobile phone charger, camera charger and laptop
    I even wanted to come up with a list indicating the things I’ve forgotten to bring

    To dream that you are at work indicates that you are experiencing some anxiety about a current project or task. The dream may also be telling you that you need to “get back to work”.  Perhaps you have been slacking off and need to pick up the pace. Stop procrastinating. Alternatively, the dream reflects your success.

    To dream that you are forgetting things signify life’s anxieties. You are expressing an overwhelming amount of stress in your life. You feel the need to tend to everything and everyone’s needs. Alternatively, forgetting something may represent your subconscious desire to leave that something behind.

    Bah~
    It all goes down to “anxiety”
    o(╥﹏╥)o

    Lucky there are these people cracking me up this morning





  • Driven To A Decision

    I guess I should document the decision factors that lead to my resignation
    For I have a tendency to think back and reprimand myself for not holding it out longer

    It started with the year end performance review talk that lasted less than 15min with my LM
    She gave me feedback such as I didn’t ‘decorate’ (in the exact words) the documents I send to project managers
    If they had wanted me to decorate, jolly well ask me to
    Why go such a long way to ask me decorate an excel spreadsheet?!
    And who decorates excel spreadsheet anyway?!!!

    Either way the year end review talk ended
    I nearly hyperventilate when I saw my 2.5 outta 5 score weeks later
    All the feedback were untrue and unjustified!

    Another person with grade higher than me does something once per year gets “meet expectation” score
    I do things right for every month, yet get “under expectation”
    WHY?!

    A person claimed that I said something which I didn’t
    Then I got penalized for it
    WHY?!!!!!

    The same person has changing standards every week because she couldn’t make up her fucking mind
    At the end of the day I get comments that says I hand in low quality work because she has to change it to the way she likes
    GO AND DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I tried setting up expectations call with them
    I tried having face to face sessions to try to set a standard
    I ended up having to wait for you for hours, then watch you eat lunch before you could talk to me
    Give me some respect will you?!

    My LM spoke to me on 23 Apr 2012 and dodged my questions for performance review
    She told me to put all this behind
    A document will be sent to me indicating the areas I should agree on

    I was so upset over the conversation that I didn’t turn up for work on 24 Apr 2012
    I cried throughout

    The document was sent to me on 25 Apr 2012
    It again gave me a shock to see terms in the document requiring my signature as follow:

    While this review period is currently scheduled for 90 days, it is expected that you will immediately demonstrate a willingness to improve and show immediate progress in the areas noted above.  Failure to do so may result in further action prior to the end of the initial review period.

    Immediate and significant improvement in your performance is required. Failure to demonstrate improvement, meet goals and expected behaviors, required outcomes and maintain improved performance may result in further corrective action up to and including termination.

    It is agreed and understood that my employment is terminable at the will of either party and that this document is not an employment contract for any specified period of time. My signature indicates I understand the terms, conditions and requirements stated above.

    I initiated a chat with my LM’s LM on 26 Apr 2012
    The talk was supposed to start at 5pm but she was late for an hour
    We went through my year end preview

    She mentioned that what I had meant may not be perceived by the other party
    The email I wrote on doing one task first, another task by the next day 12pm
    The other party simply read it as I am rejecting to do the other task
    How do I stop people from reading between the lines and penalizing me for it?

    I mentioned that according to the goals and goals description, I did everything but I still get “under performance” grading
    She commented that it’s because I am not pro-active enough in asking for things to do
    I did pro-actively ask for tasks, but the tasks were not entrusted to me
    She added that it’s because I didn’t gain the trust of the project managers

    At the end of the day, why are we grading using “pro-activeness” instead of the lengthy goals and goals description?
    She says it’s more of a “hidden clause” to gauge performance
    So to be fair, we will add this “hidden clause” in the next performance review
    If the goals were mutually agreed upon to grade my performance, shouldn’t we be using that as a benchmark instead?

    She explained that prior to the performance review, the LM already has a mindset of how the performance of the person would be
    For example, A would score a total of 3 out of 5
    Then the LM would look into the performance review form to lower the score of the person in order to match the 3 out of 5
    Why are we spending so much time trying to set goals in the first place
    When it all goes down to the perception of my LM who is far away in Bangkok
    Judgement being passed based on hearsay
    Someone who doesn’t even know how many projects I have been working on

    During my year end performance review talk, she asked how many projects I’ve been assigned (by her)
    I listed them one by one
    She asked me the same question again in Feb 2012, saying “You have 5 projects right?”
    No… I have 7! I listed them one by one again
    In Apr 2012, she again said “You have 6 projects right?”
    I relate all the 7 projects I have
    2 weeks after this, she sent out an excel spreadsheet to the entire team listing the projects we are working on
    It only indicates 6 projects

    How can I expect someone like this to grade my performance fairly?

    My LM’s LM mentioned that there will be a new line manager on board in probably in July
    We would be transferred to the line manager located in Singapore probably around September or October
    This is again the time of another year end review
    So my year 2012 performance would once again be based on hearsay?

    I question why do I have have to sign the document 5 months after the performance review
    They say they have been monitoring my performance and they find that I’ve improved ever since
    Hence only 3 months period is given, instead of half a year
    If you’ve seen me improved for the past 5 months, why do you need to formally document something to review me for another 3 months?

    My position in the system was changed last year to a higher grade
    I raised this to LM and she said she wasn’t aware of this, and would check
    Half a year passed and nothing came back to me
    In the interim, the email on promotion came out and my name wasn’t on it
    My LM’s LM said she wasn’t aware that I wasn’t promoted yet
    I was promised a promotion in Q4 if my performance continues
    It is bewildering that she doesn’t even know who she has given approval for promotion
    I went home after a 2.5hour talk with LM’s LM

    A decision was made
    I handed in my resignation letter on 27 April 2012 afternoon
    And my LM’s LM told me she has already waived off the document HR wanted me to sign

    If I hadn’t initiated the talk, I would have signed the document as requested
    Because of a 2.5hr talk, the document is just waived off so easily!
    My resignation letter was rejected and my LM’s LM wanted me to think it over the weekend

    I really thought it through
    Making sure I wasn’t arriving at a rash decision
    Yet I’ve lost so much confidence in the system and people

    I finally handed in my resignation letter on the 30 April 2012
    Because I am taking 7 days leave in June to go Korea, I was requested to work til 14 July 2012
    And all my remaining annual leave to en-cash
    I negotiated and we agreed to extend 7 working days instead

    As a result, my last working day would be 09 July 2012
    Which amounts to nearly 2.5month notice

    I felt so relieved ever since
    Even though I haven’t had a new job on hand
    I hope the road ahead would go smoother