• Item Needed: Happiness

    My friend shared with me the other day about Scoot Airline deals to Seoul. That day, I found myself spending a lot of time looking at 2015 calendar and non-stop pressing the calculator to measure my finances. Rational part of me is telling me not to buy, but the insensible part of me wouldn’t let me leave the Scoot website. In the end, I made a decision to let it pass. Now is not the time, and neither does my wallet allows me to be capricious.

    That very night, I dreamt that I suddenly found cheap air tickets to Hong Kong, and once again I was on my way to Hong Kong for a vacation alone. Instead of feeling the excitement of embarking on a vacation trip, I found myself feeling guilty that I wasn’t bringing my parents along on the trip with me. At the same time, I was planning to buy another Longchamp bag on that very trip. Despite limited resources, I was persistent in making the purchase, very well knowing that the guiltiness in me would increase after the transaction.

    Your dream implies feelings of rejection. You may be feeling that no one understand you.

    You are feeling guilty about something is in relations to how you are handling your successes and failures or competence and incompetence. You may feel undeserving of your achievements. Or on the other hand, you feel that you have let others down. Alternatively, the dream is symbolic of repressed and negative feelings that you may have about yourself.

    To dream that you are on vacation indicates that you need a break to recharge your energies and revitalize yourself. You need to break out of your daily routine and do something different.

    As usual, my dream reflects my negativity and my reluctance to stay status quo. I need a dosage of positive injection in my life.

  • Insecurities vs Excitement

    The past week I’ve been heading to bed as early as 10.30pm, even on weekends. Gone are the days where I head to bed at 3am in the morning and finally wake up to a hungry stomach at 12pm. Now I reluctantly climb out of bed before 7am everyday and heads out before the sky turns bright. Every morning, I turned into a drama female lead being separated with my fellow drama male lead, the bed. I cling on to my bed as though it’s going to be the last time I’m going to see it, shedding tears that came to me when I yawned.

    Despite the lack of sleep everyday, my dreaming capabilities is still functioning well. Just last night I had such a long and disturbing dream. In the wee hours of the night, I was awoken by my own coughing, and thought to myself, ‘What a nightmare I just had…’ and dozed off once again, continuing the very dream.

    Your dream implies that there is an old lesson from previously employment that you need to learn and apply to your current situation. It also implies that you feel unprepared for some challenge in your waking life. You may even be harboring some guilt because you did not prepare enough for a school exam, meeting, business proposal, or some project. Perhaps you have been procrastinating on a task and waited until the last minute to cram it all in. Alternatively, it could be telling you that you are setting yourself up for failure because you have set unrealistic goals for yourself.

    The simple dream interpretation seems to imply that I am insecure at this very moment, which I can’t deny. A whole lot of uncertainties but it means excitement too! I guess the adrenaline rush is something I need to contain and enjoy at the same time. That being said, I should probably get back to work.

  • Negative Keywords

    Dreamt that I was having meal at a big round table in restaurant. The settings seems to put me attending a wedding. No matter how I waited, the waiter/waitress wouldn’t come serve me. I repeatedly told myself to be patient but they just wouldn’t come. My stomach was growling mad and I finally lost my cool. I stormed up to very busy kitchen staff to demand to know when my food will arrive and they told me I need to wait for another half an hour. I was relieved in knowing I only need to wait for another 30minutes and I woke up just then.

    To see a waiter in your dream indicates that you need to be nurtured and to feel special. The dream may also be a pun to be patient. Learn to wait.

    To dream that you are waiting is indicative of issues of power/control and feelings of dependence/independence, especially in a relationship. Consider how you feel in the dream while you were waiting. If you are patient, then you know things will happen at their own pace. If you are impatient, then it means that you are being too demanding or that your expectations are too high.

    Alternatively, the dream may denote your expectations and anxieties about some unknown situation or decision. You are experiencing a sense of anticipation or uneasiness.

    To dream that you are hungry signifies a feeling of unfulfilment in some area of your life. You may be starving for love. recognition, power, sex, wealth, or fame. You are longing to achieve something that you have desired for awhile.

    To dream that you are holding or expressing anger symbolizes frustrations and disappointments in your Self. You tend to repress your negative emotions or project your anger onto others. You need to look within yourself.

    Being angry in your dream may have been carried over from your waking life. Dreams function as a safe outlet where you can express your strong and/or negative emotions. You are suppressing your anger and aggression, instead of consciously acknowledging them.

    The keywords I got: Uneasiness, Unfulfilment, Longing, Frustrations, Disappointments, Anger, Anxieties, Demanding

    Sigh… …. I need to breathe yet again

  • Dream Dream Dream

    My dream last night started off with swimming free style in a big pool. I am starting to think it is because I didn’t get a dip in the pool with slide when I was in Kuala Lumpur Hilton Hotel in February earlier this year. I want to go swimming!!!! (Pouts)

    Dream suggests that you are exploring aspects of your subconscious mind and emotions. It may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.

    But… I am not going through any kinds of therapy! (Gasp)

    In my dream, I was taking selca with 3 close friends in my dream. I was having short hair in my dream! Nooooo~~~~ I have intention to grow my hair these 2 years!

    To dream that you have short hair implies that you need to downsize your lifestyle.

    Ok… I guess my expenditure is a little over-busted recently. Perhaps it is an indication to stop my extravagant lifestyle.

    To dream that you are taking a picture suggests that you need to focus more attention on some situation or relationship. Perhaps, you feel that you need to recapture some past moments in a relationship. Alternatively, taking a picture refers to your desires to hold onto a certain moment in your life.

    I guess I am subconsciously reminding myself to treasure these friends around me.

  • Dream Yet Again

    I had such a horrible nightmare last night. I dreamt that I checked in a hotel with a few friends sharing the same room. Somehow weird things started to happen and my friends were scared. They abandoned me in the room and check in to another room.

    To dream that you are in a ghost town suggests that you are feeling rejected by society. You may be isolating yourself from others. Alternatively, the dream means that you are living in the past and clinging onto memories. It is time to let go and live in the present times.

    To see a hotel in your dream signifies a new state of mind or a shift in personal identity. You are undergoing some sort of transition and need to move away from your old habits and old way of thinking. You need to temporarily escape from your daily life.

    To dream that you are abandoned suggests that it is time to leave behind past feelings and characteristics that are hindering your growth. Let go of your old attitudes. A more direct and literal interpretation of this dream indicates you have a fear of being deserted, abandoned, or even betrayed. It may stem from a recent loss or a fear of losing a loved one. The fear of abandonment may manifest itself into your dream as part of the healing process and dealing with losing a loved one. It may also stem from unresolved feelings or problems from childhood. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are feeling neglected or that your feelings are being overlooked. Perhaps the dream is a metaphor that you need to approach life with “reckless abandon” and live more freely.

    To dream that you are alone indicates feelings of rejection. You may be feeling that no one understand you.

    I got so upset and wanted to return to the hotel room to pack up. However I fell asleep under influence of the ghosts and couldn’t wake up with them crushing on me.

    To see a ghost in your dream represents something that is no longer obtainable or within reach. It indicates that you are feeling disconnected from life and society. Try to figure out what the ghost wants or what it is looking for. The dream may also be a calling for you to move on and abandon your outdated modes of thinking and behavior.

    I was cursing and swearing under my breathe to try and wake myself up. When I finally did, I resumed packing. Halfway through packing, other friends came and check in to the room with me, letting me know I’m not alone. It ended on a sweet note for my dream though.

    I wonder if reality is going to end on a sweet note like my dream… …

  • 아싸!

    I met up with my polytechnic mates last night. It has been so long since I last saw them. Usually we meet up at least one a year during Chinese New Year but I missed the session last year. It was such an enjoyable session and I am glad I went. There were so much jokes and I laughed til I felt my cheeks flushed red.

    The girls brought their boyfriends whom some I’ve seen for the first time. And the session somehow ended up persuading the boyfriends to propose and get married. It went on and on and on… Til I dreamt of getting married myself last night. ORZ

    I dreamt of myself making a move on someone, whom I shall not name, and got married at lightning of speed. The groom is not someone I like, and has wife and children in reality. Anyway the night I got married, I was looking at the photographs of people attending the wedding and everyone looked unhappy. There was even a caption at the bottom of the photo stating the guests look “sour”.  I somehow took it as a sign and immediately regretted my decision on getting married to this guy. I wanted to void this marriage and turn to my parents to discuss with them. In my dream, I was so close to running away from this man.

    To dream of a marriage signifies commitment, harmony or transitions. You are undergoing an important developmental phase in your life. The dream may also represent the unification of formerly separate or opposite aspects of yourself. In particular, it is the union of masculine or feminine aspects of yourself. Consider the qualities and characteristics of the person that you are marrying. These are the qualities that you need to look at incorporating within yourself.

    To dream that you are planning a wedding to someone you never met is a metaphor symbolizing the union of your masculine and feminine side. It represents a transitional phase where you are seeking some sort of balance between your aggressive side and emotional side. The dream may also indicate that two previously conflicting aspects are merging together as one.

    To dream that you escape from jail or some place of confinement signifies your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. Alternatively, it suggests that you are refusing to face your problems. You are avoiding the situation, instead of confronting them.

    Somehow the dream interpretations do reflect what I feel. No, I am definitely not dying to get married as my friend says. (Rolls Eyes) I came across a statement made by an artist on a Korean variety program, Strong Heart, previously. She said: 여자 나이는 서른부터시작하고 생각합니다. It means “I think female age starts from thirty.” This is totally my sentiments right now! Though I am still a few years away from thirty, perhaps now is the time I really should start my engine rolling. My engine that takes me to the future I was looking forward to, and work towards in. 아싸!!!

  • Nightmare (?)

    Yet another dream again last night. SMTown just ended and I dreamt of Yesung. In my dream, he was getting married and his wife was 1 year older than him. I could totally feel how much he loved her in my dream. Someone asked him to rate how compatible he and his wife was, he rated 100%.

    Waking up from a Yesung dream, I couldn’t really feel happiness. I know he’d get married eventually and I will of course give my blessings and wish him happiness. I just secretly wish the day won’t come so soon.

    Random thoughts of a fan girl ☁

  • Dream away into reality, I hope

    I can’t believe I dreamt so much that day… … Took me such a long time to pen down my thoughts. Just a telephone interview and it has so much impact on me. Breathe… …

    I dreamt that I was super excited to go on a roller coaster that has very drastic drops at high velocity. However after we go though the most exciting part of the drop, the roller coaster was stopped by someone on the ride.  We returned to the original start point and went through the ride again. This happened for a total of 3 times. I still remembered when it finally go through the entire ride, I felt so free and happy.

    To dream that you are riding a roller coaster represents life’s frequent ups and downs in your waking life. You are experiencing erratic behavior brought on by yourself or a situation.

    After the ride, I was making my way home, SM Entertainment. I used inflated balloons to help me fly across the places so I didn’t have to walk. Everyone was doing that until the balloons started to deflate and started snatching each others’ balloons. I protected my three sapphire blue balloons well. Not long after, i had to start walking too because balloons were fully deflated.

    Having difficulties staying in flight indicates a lack of power in controlling your own circumstances. You may be struggling to stay aloft or stay on set course. Things like power lines, trees, or mountains may be obstacles that you encounter in flight. These obstacles symbolize something or someone who is standing in your way in your waking life. You need to identify what or who is trying to prevent you from moving forward. Difficulty flying may also be an indication of a lack of confidence or some hesitation on your part. You need to believe in yourself and not be afraid.

    I was following some men on the dark streets because there were men eating people. I followed closely until I remembered I have to cross to another town in order to reach my destination. I recalled the routes from my previous dreams (same venue that keeps coming back to me). Before I left the town, a small girl approached me and asked for clothes I was holding in my hands. I chose a penguin design and asked if she liked it. She was so touched that she cried.

    To see someone else crying in your dream may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.

    Next dream,  I was in Taiwan. Though originally planned to be in Taipei for 3D2N, I somehow only spent my first night in Kaohsiung. I was in Taipei on the second day and suddenly remembered to check my air ticket back. It seems like I had to take the night flight that very day. I panicked and checked in at the airport. The airport staff enquired if I have a luggage which I did, but it was at the hotel. The airport staff told me I had to come back to check in luggage within 15min. I hurried off on subway to get my luggage and ended up taking different route from the one I was supposed to. As time goes by, I even forgot I had a flight to catch. I was happily shoes shoppings on Xi Men Ding. The next day, I finally realised I missed the flight and was trying to call Jetstar customer service hotline desperately.

    To dream that you are late signifies your fear of change and your ambivalence about seizing an opportunity. You may feel unready, unworthy, or unsupported in your current circumstances. Additionally, you may be overwhelmed or conflicted with decisions about your future. Time is running out and you no longer have time to accomplish all the things you want.

    This blog is turning more into my dream log.

  • BigBang Alive in Singapore

    What happens after editing close to 100 photos for a concert? You dream of them.

    I dreamt of BigBang’s concert and how difficult it was to get hold of their tickets. I was rushing out of my house earlier on and I now can’t remember much of the dream. Damn!

    I only recall it was raining very heavily in my dream. Thankfully I was already owner of tickets in my dream. Yet I see people vying for the tickets desperately. I even see people gliding on the floor, in the rain, because of a ticket. Don’t ask me why he did that. I have seriously no idea! The dream took place in a neighborhood I have no recollection of visiting in reality. Yet this neighborhood keeps appearing in my dreams lately. >”<

    To see and hear rain falling symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain is also a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness. If you get wet from the rain, then it indicates cleaning from your troubles and problems.

    To dream that you are in a competition represents your need to grow and expand. Learn the value of endurance and perseverance. You also need to be more assertive. Alternatively, the dream may reflect your anxiety about some real life competition that you are involved in.

    To dream that you are in an unknown neighborhood signifies aspects of your subconscious. The dream may also parallel a waking situation which is new or unfamiliar to you. You are venturing into a brand new territory and it is making you slightly anxious and uneasy.

    The last dream interpretation is freaking true! I am weighing my options on my future and throwing in all possible outcomes. Perhaps I’ll share more when I have a decision made.

    Speaking of BigBang, I went for their Alive concert on 29 September 2012 at Singapore Indoor Stadium. My first time watching BigBang live performance was during the F1 concert in year 2011. This Alive is a full concert and should not be missed!

    I must warn you though, there is a whole load of photos coming up. On a side note, please do not edit or remove logo from my photos. Thanks!

    The concert started and we were screaming like hell in there. Originally I was slightly worried about TOP and Seungri’s mood because the former hurt his hand, and the latter just got involved in a scandal prior to the concert. It turned out my worries were uncalled for!

    It was so hard trying to take a good photo of GD because he was dancing non-stop! Using a normal digital camera and having to zoom in from far, I wanted to give myself a pat on the back for this good quality photo. XD


    Like what’s a BigBang concert without Taeyang stripping and showing off his masculine body right? My friend who attended concerts for both 28th and 29th September, mentioned Taeyang stripped more times during the 29th day. I must say our screaming worked. ㅋㅋㅋ

    Daesung’s solo where he appeared with large wings and “flying” across the stadium. His vocal is so stable and strong, and his smile is bright like sunshine.


    Compared to GD, Top is so much easier to capture on camera. He stood around a lot and observed the crowd with his hawk-liked-eyes. As the concert progress, I noticed he started to let himself loose gradually. Let the photos do the words.

    There! Another segment already and Taeyang appeared with clothes originally. The lines on that back looking good. Heh~


    I really like Seungri a lot. Though he’s the maknae of the group, he looks so wise for his age. So many times I looked at him and wonder what’s running in his head.

    Everyone please give him a break from the scandal. I am glad his scandal is with a female! It only implies his sexual interest is normal. This is much better than having a scandal with a male right? Not that I think anything is wrong with it. Don’t get me wrong. Knowing he likes female only give me and other fangirls more room to fantasize about ourselves. (Giggles)

    I’m not trying to be rude, but most of the times Daesung appeared on my camera without eyes opened. I find his small eyes cute though! I like people with single eyelids. Think Yesung from Super Junior, Dujun from Beast! And of course Seungri from BigBang!

    Gummy smile Seungri capturing Daesung on Samsung S3 phone.

    Someone threw a mask onto the stage and GD picked it up. Yups that’s GD alright. I was surprised he even rapped through the mask. LOL~

    Fan event for BigBang and Seungri was so sweet to pick it up. Yes, thank you BigBang for the awesome night. I have no idea what GD was doing back there! Towards the end of the concert they were exhausted and were lying everywhere on the stage!

    Here is Daesung’s failed attempt to cool the fans using his drinking water. It only make fangirls more excited!

    TOP just got up from lying on the floor so his hood was up. Cute!

    TOP suddenly picked up this red horn hairband and was struggling to put it on with his “crippled” right hand. Another member came over and helped him with it and he was so happy. Cute MAX!

    The concert ended with a blast and me with sore throat from all the screaming. I was having regrets that I didn’t get the ticket for day 1 as well. Well, I guess regrets only contribute to future opportunities! BigBang please come Singapore again!!!

  • Nightmare again

    I had a nightmare last night and I was crying so badly in it
    Woke up this morning like I’ve woken on the wrong side of the bed

    I dreamt that it was sister’s birthday and I got her a flower designed USB
    Thinking it would be good to surprise her, I sneaked into her BMW car to plug in the USB

    Suddenly a guy in briefcase, glasses and suit came in and sat on the driver’s seat
    He called me “자기야” obviously mistaking me for my sister
    I was very unhappy with this man in my dream, I have no idea why
    I snorted and told him “I’m not my sister” and he was surprised
    Either way he started driving off the vehicle to somewhere we could wait for my sister

    This is the part I can’t remember very well now
    This guy said something very rude to me and sort of chased me off
    I got out of the car, slammed the door and stormed away
    He was swearing Korean behind me and I stopped right in the tracks
    Turned back and he stuffed back the flower designed USB back to me

    I got so upset and called my sister immediately
    Related the entire incident in tears to her
    And I woke up to reality

    What bewilders me is that the guy who appeared in my dream is not my brother in law in reality
    And somehow I recall that he’s the other half of my sister in my dream

    To dream that you are giving a gift signifies your generosity towards others. Alternatively, you may be trying to express some feeling or have something awkward to say that has to be carefully packaged. If you are buying or giving someone expensive gifts, then it symbolizes the sacrifices you are making for that person. You want to make them feel important.

    I simply wish things with my family could turn for the better
    My sister would come home more often and my parents stop pressuring me due to her absense

    If you are the passenger in a car, you are taking a passive role in the way your life is going. This may indicate low self-esteem or low self-confidence. Overall, this dream symbol is an indication of your dependence and degree of control you have on your life.

    I can’t believe I put myself down so much in life
    Sigh… …

    To hear someone swear in your dream indicates that you have overlooked an urgent matter or situation. Perhaps someone is in need of rescue from some circumstance and it is your job to protect them.

    The only person I could thought of saving now, is myself

    To dream that you or someone is complaining about something signifies suppressed or unexpressed feelings that are threatening to surface. The actual complaint usually refers to something else that is really bothering you.

    I’m quite sure it is just their not coming home and showing concern for my parents

    To dream that you are crying signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day.

    Awwww~ My invisible wall just vanishes in my dream
    Feeling so naked and fragile

    I’m guessing all these emotions surge because my family finally got together for my convocation
    Yeah! I finally had my convocation!!!!!!
    Will come up with a post on my convocation soon!