I feel like screaming with the number of things running in my head

It doesn’t help to know first row doesn’t matter anymore
We are far and that’s it
The anticipation is gone
Insecure overwhelms

Everything awful is slowly creeping
I wonder when they decided to sit on me and watch as I groan in pain

Each and every job has its pros and cons
Why can’t people understand this and just swallow it down
If things are really so difficult then just move on

I had to resort to appearing offline on MSN recently
So many people to counsel and no alone time for myself anymore

It gets on my nerves when I have my own things to worry about too

Things are taking a turn from the direction I thought I was moving in
Definitely not something I was expecting some time back

Guess decisions need to be made when you reach a junction
No avoidance

I’m just worried
Whether I’m falling into the life cycle similar to everyone else
Aimless without a direction

Work nowadays are not just mere work
I seek job satisfaction from them
It makes me feel good about myself
At the same time worrying that I’ve too fallen into the category of mundane OL

Perhaps I should just be contented with whatever I am doing now
Don’t think too deep into them

I can’t conceal my excitement as date is nearing
So much yet undone
Namely flights and accommodation

Whilst fighting those butterflies fluttering in my stomach
I can’t help but notice the nearing examination dates too
(Groans)

Time to put away books for leisure reading
I’m gonna start hugging textbooks to sleep
Argh~~~~~~

Finally made decision to put things to a stop
Keyboard and Vocal
Not that I grew out of it
I just got sick from all the commitments tied to me

Falling sick on a weekday and get a medical certificate to office
Falling sick on a weekend and get a medical certificate to FM

I didn’t see a doctor to make myself feel better
It only serves the purpose of explaining my absence

Hate having to explain anything to anyone

There seems to be so much “I” going around
It’s my life after all
Why should it be filled with everyone else?

I just wanna start loving myself more

And I made a rash decision knowing I won’t regret in the future
I’m gonna set my foot on the exotic land
All excited and geared up for the unknown!

 Y.E.A.H!!!!

When you feel like everyone’s forgotten about you
At least I learnt to smile
Even when my presence is not known to anyone